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Subject: An arrangement Fri Oct 02, 2020 9:46 am

@Eden

Gerard had been staying with Eden for a few weeks now. He was being well looked after, fed daily as well as having a personal trainer that kept him in shape and to the liking of the vampyre. It was clear that the nephilim was still in mourning, his dreams still filled with Tessa. He was afraid of saying her name in his sleep, mostly because Eden often watched him sleep. Perhaps because it was the only time the vampyre could get close to touch his face as he pleased.
This morning he had gotten up early, walking down to the kitchen and sitting down at the table that was already neatly placed for him. He felt so guilty, like these people only lived to serve him and he didn't like it. Not that he had any real power in this house. Grabbing the newspaper he lightly looked at the headlines as he took a sip of his coffee. "Good morning," Gerard said, looking up as Eden entered. Part of him wondered when the vampyre would snap and just claim him, although he knew it would be inevitable. What are your plans for today?" he asked before looking back at the newspaper.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Fri Oct 02, 2020 12:58 pm

It definitely was hard on Eden to not just have his way. Even more when he touched Gerard’s face and heard him whisper sweet words in french that Eden knew wasnt for him. It annoyed him that the nephilim wasnt even making an effort to forget that girl. But it didnt really matter either, because Eden had read today’s newspaper and found a segment he was just waiting for Gerard to find. “Goodmorning,” he said calmly as he sat down and leaned back into the chair. He shrugged at Gerard’s question and crossed his arms into a comfortable position. “I’ve got some business meetings, but I thought we could go out and have dinner together later,” he said, glancing at the paper as he tried to not seem thrilled every time he turned a page. Hadnt it been that some celebrity had said something odd that had taken the frontpage, Eden knew this would have. Theresa Elior Morgan still missing on fourth week the headline would say. Eden wasnt surprised, after all the Elior name did carry weight. The media would be more than interested in covering thst case. But the only reason why it seemed to make Eden so happy was because he knew it wasnt because of him.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Fri Oct 02, 2020 5:00 pm

Safe to say the nephilim wasn't easily persuaded.
It didn't matter if Eden took his time, the vampyre just wouldn't ever get the affection he hungered for. It was simple, Gerard's heart was broken and on the outside he seemed to function, but everything else wasn't.
He nodded at the plans but furrowed his brows as a headline caught his attention. He turned it around pointing at it while looking at Eden. "What is this?" He demanded to know. He could feel his heart beat faster with fear. Was she okay? What had happened? And worst of all did Eden know anything?

Subject: Re: An arrangement Fri Oct 02, 2020 6:04 pm

The good thing about Tessa’s disappearence was was that at least Gerard seemed to have some sort of reaction to it. He looked at the paper as Gerard pointed to it, shrugging as the nephilim seemed to think he had anything to do with it. “I havent touched her. I wouldnt do anything to break the terms for keeping you here,” he said truthfully, but he clearly seemed to be happy that she was missing either way. “Might be that she couldnt handle a broken heart,” he said as he inspected his nails to then look at the nephilim with a pleased smile and his head slightly tilted to the side. “And no. I dont know what happened. I got what I wanted,” he shrugged, looking at Gerard as he wasnt sure what the nephilim was thinking. He could almost tell how bad he wanted to go find her, but Eden would be damned to allow that.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Fri Oct 02, 2020 10:48 pm

Gerard felt his eyes water, because he felt like the scum of the world, even if it was Eden pulling the strings that made him stay put. He knew the vampyre enough to know when he spoke the truth, and if it wasn't him then perhaps it was just her having run off. But he still felt guilty. What wouldn't Conrad think of him? What of Leona and how broken she had been the last time Tessa had run off? And what about the rest of her family? Gerard could only imagine they were all worried sick, and here he was drinking his morning coffee as if nothing could bother him. And yet it did. Swallowing he looked at the photo of Tessa, they had picked one of her with her neutral make up, but he could still imagine how her regular would look; how she dared making things look different. That in it of itself was beauty in his eyes.
"Eden ... I want to help find her," he said, feeling like it was a lost cause to begin with. Getting up from his seat he moved around, standing by the vampyre, moving a bit of loose hair from his forehead, carefully gracing the cold skin. "I know you won't let me, I understand, but you still want me to be happy, right?" he asked, looking at the vampyre's bluegreen eyes. "If she is found and brought home safely, I'll let you do whatever you want to my body," he spoke truthfully, letting his finger move under the vampyre's chin, lifting it up to let him look at how serious he was. "I'll moan your name, submit to your every desire ... Just help her get home," he pleaded. Of course Eden could've just taken him already, but he also knew that there would be no pleasure in that for the vampyre. He wanted him to submit, wanted him to give in, and Gerard was offering him that right now.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Fri Oct 02, 2020 11:11 pm

He frowned a little as Gerard said he wanted to help find her. Did he really have to paint it black amd white for the nephilim? The question made him sigh as he looked at him with a slight annoyance in his eyes. Wasnt it obvious? Then he suggested something that caught Eden’s attention, looking up at him with searching eyes as he lifted his chin. “And you promise this?” He asked him with his eyebrows raised slightly. Everything had to be a promise with the vampyre, like it was some sort of business deal to him. If he allowed him to go find her, then he would truly be his. Why would he say no to that? He seemed to consider it as his gaze wandered away for a second before he frowned and looked at him with serious eyes. “I’ll let you go find her and then you’ll be mine. Forever. Understood? In every way,” he demanded, frowning as he needed a confirmation before he would allow it. “And you’ll just bring her home. Dont go behind my back.. I’ll know if you do,” he added with a deep sigh, wondering if he was making the right choice. He could just take him if he wanted to but that wasnt what he wanted. He wanted submission, to know he could control every aspect of this relationship.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sat Oct 03, 2020 12:18 am

"I promise," he spoke rather seriously. He knew that he wouldn't get out of here anyways, but he didn't want to see Tessa running off like this. And if he could help, he wanted to. Even if her family despised him at this point. He knew that this was perhaps a bad deal on his end, but if she was out there feeling lost and alone he wanted to do something about it, not just sit and read about it in the newspapers. When Eden gave in, he felt a rush of happiness before a feeling of dread.
He nodded. "I'll just bring her home, I just want her to be safe," he spoke calmly, but part of him also knew that Tessa would try and make him stay with her. He kinda wished that he could, or maybe he should just take the chance and run. But then again, the deal would be off and Gerard couldn't live with the thought that the vampyre could harm anyone he wanted. Gerard leaned down, looking at Eden with a thankful look as he stroked his cheek with his thumb. It was the first time that the nephilim had shown any type of affection since being there. "Thank you," he whispered before leaving the house.
Frankly, he didn't know where to start, but he thought it might be a good idea to call Leona. She wouldn't recognize his number, an encoded one that Eden had gotten for him, but he prayed that she picked up. "Leona ... I want to help ... I can't do much in my current situation, but I want to bring her home - Tell me everything," he said as he asked one of the servants for a car to drive around town in. He didn't know where she would be, there were so many places, but if he knew Tessa as he did, he also knew that at some point he would find her. "Does she have her phone on her? Or anything at all with which I can contact her?" he asked.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sat Oct 03, 2020 5:10 am

Eden was taking a chance here. Allowing Gerard to go look for the person he considered to be his true love while Eden just had to believe that he would uphold his promise and not just run away with her at the first chance he got? Well Eden had considered that option and he was sure Gerard had too, at least in the regard whether he wanted her alive in the end or in the pieces that Eden would've gladly delivered her in. He watched him as he left, drawing in a deep breath as time would tell if he had made the right choice.
Leona wasnt sure what to believe when she picked up her phone but the last person that she was expecting to hear from was definitely Gerard. Her daughter had been missing from the day he broke up with her and he finally decided to contact them? He was met with nothing but silence on the other end, though she wished she could tell him anything. Even just the smallest hint but she was clueless. “Her phone has been off since the day she left. It’s like it was back then. But I dont know what she wants,” Leona finally admitted after a while. Clearly she was distressed. “I just want my daughter back,” she whispered in a voice filled with sorrow.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sat Oct 03, 2020 11:08 am

This would come to bite him in the ass, Gerard just knew it, but he had to do it for Tessa. If they couldn't find her, he felt like it was his responsibility to bring her back. Hearing Leona's familiar voice, he could also hear the sadness in her tone. She sounded heartbroken, and Gerard felt his eyes water. He had come to view Leona as family, even from the brief time that he had been with Tessa, he had admired the strong maternal figure. "I'll find her, I promise," he said, although he didn't really know where to start.
Hanging up with a promise to contact her as soon as he knew more, he asked the driver to go to the apartment he shared with Xalvador. Despite not being there unless he had something to pick up for work, or his weekly check in with him, it still felt strange to go there. There were so many great memories, but the bad one outshined them all. Seeing Tessa cry had broken something inside of him. Entering the apartment he was met with silence until a familiar figure stepped out in to the hallway. "Gee," Eliza whispered before running to him, wrapping her arms around him. She hadn't seen him, only heard about what had happened from Xalvador, and seeing her friend made her cry. "You're back? What - What happened? Are you free? Have you heard from Tessa?" she started asking before looking around herself. "Xal! Gerard is home!" she cried out with happy tears.
Gerard felt like this was worse, but he just held Eliza, her being a close friend seemed to help him cope, but he could still remember how torn and beaten she had looked at the floor of that warehouse. "I'm just here for clues," he said, looking at Xalvador with a pained expression. "Have you seen her? Heard from her? Anything that might lead me to her?" he asked, wanting to reach out and pull his brother close, but he also knew the separation would make that so much more painful. Besides that he knew that the hybrid was disappointed in the choices he had made.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sat Oct 03, 2020 1:20 pm

Xalvador had been spending quite some time with Eliza, though with his dumb brain there was no way that it would just be more than a friendly interaction. As soon as anything seemed to lead to something romantic, he either hadnt caught up on it or known what to do. He really did like Eliza, he just didnt know how to tell or show her. He was sorting out the rent papers as Eliza had gone and he could hear exactly who she was greeting. Even if they met weekly, it was clear that Xalvador couldnt condoe this. It was insane to him that Gerard had agreed to sacrifice himself like that.
He got up and went to the hallway crossing his arms. “She comes here once in a while. She stays the night in your room and leaves in the morning. I didnt tell her mom because I knew that would make her stop coming. This way, she at least has one place she can come to,” he explained with a shrug. Then he frowned a little. “I notice small bruises on her every time. Like the ones you had from your time as an escort,” he explained making a deep sigh. “I dont know if that helps. I’m sorry I said nothing. Honestly, I didnt even know she was missing to the rest of the world,” he said with a small frown.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sat Oct 03, 2020 4:36 pm

Gerard nodded at Xalvador's words. At least she would still be around. However the mention of the bruises made him grit her teeth. "If you recognise the bruises ... Then I'll go to Western, " he said, frowning as he rarely set foot in that part of Churchill. He was too recognizable there from his past, but he would go there for her. "If she comes here while I'm gone, will you send me a message?" He asked, not knowing if Xalvador would even do that, but he had to ask. "Xal, I can't let her waste her life away like this," he pleaded before heading out the door.
Going towards Western he called some of his old contacts, and with that lead from Xalvador, it didnt take long to track her down. A small bar in one of the small streets, he sat down by a booth, looking out in to the room. She should be here, he just had to look for her.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sat Oct 03, 2020 5:43 pm

Xalvador frowned as he couldnt really understand what was going on. Hadnt he been the one to break up with her so Eden would stop acting out? And now he was out looking for her? He clearly worried, because that meant that Gerard had promised something that would make Eden agree to this. “What did you promise him?” He asked after agreeing to telling him if she came here. He hadnt expected an answer but it hadnt mattered because answer or no answer, it was pissing him off. He followed him out into the corridor with an angry expression as the nephilim was leaving. “You’re not setting a good example for her you pendejo!” He yelled angrily, referring to the whole wasting her life away. He went back into the apartment and drew in a deep calming breath.

She felt lost. Lost and heartbroken. So what could a young person do in their distress? Act out. It was all she knew of doing, acting out till it was eventually noticed. She was staying with Maddie at night, which was mostly just her crying her heart out over and over, till she eventually couldnt cry anymore. And the next morning, it was like someone hit a reset button. She didnt know what she was doing, she had no actual experience other than doing a simple search on the internet and read up just a little. She had set up a meeting and just gone from there. It was actually going quite well for her, the things she had to do werent over the top. But she had warned the man that he couldnt touch her, no one was allowed to touch her ever again she told herself over and over, like a sort of mantra. It made her forget her broken heart and all the things she didnt want to remember. She hadnt had an urge to snap a photo, like her will to do photography evaporated. She was leaning onto some business man that were talking to similar men with their girls. This one seemed to like her to be pretty and quiet, which she didnt really mind, as long as she wasnt just left to her own thoughts.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sat Oct 03, 2020 11:02 pm

He simply shook his head at Xalvador's question, because it was clear he didn't want to say it out loud, hurrying off with the scolding from his friend, he felt a fire in him that burned to find her. Eliza stood for a second in the hallway, looking at the now closed door with a saddened frown before walking in to Xalvador, trying to calm him down.

Western District was his old playing ground, the place where the scum of the world met the cream of the crop. He looked around for a while before a table caught his eyes. All of them business men, dressed nicely, and on their arm was definitely not their wives. Then he spotted her blonde locks, and he felt like his heart could stop. The way she was leaned against the man's arm made him sad. Most men would've gotten up, walked over there and claimed her, but Gerard felt himself lost. He could see himself in that position, he was in it right now with Eden, but how was he going to fix this?
Narrowing his eyes, he seemed to recognize the man she was leaned up against. Not personally, but he knew him from his time back when. Getting up from his seat he walked over to the table, looking at the man that Tessa was leaned up against. "Mister Johnson, long time no see - How's your wife these days?" he asked, but there was a clear glimmer in his eyes that he clearly knew the man's wife. "It's been so long, I could barely recognize you," he said, before his eyes turned to Tessa, clicking his tongue as he shook his head. "Mister Johnson, always with the pretty young ladies ... Why, she doesn't look a day over 18 - Have you asked for her ID, perchance?" he asked.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sat Oct 03, 2020 11:18 pm

She noticed him approach them in the corner of her eye but she wasnt sure if it was actually him or just her brain wanting it to be. It wasnt till he stood by their table and spoke to the guy that she was with, that she looked up at him with surprise in her eyes. Then she felt her heart ache, frowning as Gerard spoke to the man. “Gerard Castell. You’ve grown so much since we last met,” the older man chuckled, seemingly ignoring the comment about his wife. Tessa could feel the anger boil in her, because she wasnt stupid. She knew he was only here to ruin things for her. “Why are you here?” She asked quietly, trying to seem neutral but her voice was full of hurt.
The question about her age quickly made Johnson retract his arm as the rest blinked a bit in surprise. She couldnt even deny it, because it wasnt lile she was carrying around a fake ID. Tessa sent Gerard a sour expression before she got up from the booth and grabbed her bag. She wished the men a good night before she just went for the door, wanting to just get away and flee. First he broke up with her and now he was here for what? Ruining her night?

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sat Oct 03, 2020 11:30 pm

Gerard chuckled, but it sounded almost hollow from how Tessa would be used to he sounded when he found something genuinely funny. "Time does that to you," he replied, gesturing down his body. Then Tessa spoke to him, but it was clear he didn't need to tell her. Didn't she already know? The man seemed to lose interest in the valkyrie as Gerard pointed out her age, bidding the men goodbye shortly after Tessa before following her out.
Once outside he took her hand. "Theresa, don't do this," he pleaded, his voice sincere and breaking from just getting to hold her hand, even if she pulled it away. "You have no reason to do this, you have a great family, you have a career and friends that care for you - why are you doing this?" he asked, shaking his head because he knew why, but he needed to hear what she had to say.
"Did any of them ..." he asked, but he didn't even dare finish his question as he looked at her.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sat Oct 03, 2020 11:48 pm

She grit her teeth a little as he grabbed her hand, wanting to shake free but unable to do so. She turned and looked at him with betrayal in her eyes, shaking her head at his plea. “No, you dont get to do this!” She hissed but it was because of how much it just hurt to be around him. Sparking feelings that she had been trying to drain and hide away. She just stared at him and kept quiet, shaking her head if he really thought she was going to open up now. Then he asked a question that made her frown for a second before she scoffed and shook her head in disbelief. “Did any of them what? Sleep with me? Touch me? Does it matter if they did or didnt?” She asked, feeling her tears press on before she looked away. She pulled her hand to herself, shaking her head. “Just leave me alone Gerard,” she whispered, wrapping her arms around herself. “You chose him. So dont come here and act like you suddenly want to care,” she mumbled, blinking her tears away before she shook her head. This was ridiculous. All she wanted was just to feel his arms around her and have him kiss her all over her face like he used to. But all that felt so far away now.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sun Oct 04, 2020 12:00 am

He should've kept his mouth shut, he shouldn't have asked, because he didn't know if he would like the answer. However it did matter. In a way it did and Gerard felt so selfish for thinking that, but it just did, and it was a feeling that hurt in his chest. He felt a shiver run down his spine as she spoke her name, however it wasn't how she used to say it. Normally there would've been a smile to her voice when she spoke his name, but now it felt like a slap in the face. He shook his head at her words. "You think I chose him?" he asked, purely in disbelief as he felt his eyes water. Did she really think that was what had happened? That he had just decided to go with that lunatic on a whim? No, he despised the vampyre he was forced to stay with, he hated everything about him, and yet he had offered him something in return for being here. "If you think I chose this, then you don't know me," he said, feeling his stomach turn at the thought of what he would have to do later. He felt dizzy, closing his eyes as he took a deep breath. "All I ever wanted was for you to be safe and happy ... But clearly you don't want either," he said, feeling like she was throwing herself away to some stupid rebellious act in her mind.
"Theresa, I love you, and that is why I am here - I don't care if you hate me for it, but I have given up something important to be right here," he said, feeling his breath shudder, shaking his head. "I promised your mother I would bring you home, that is the least I can do since clearly I have failed at everything in my life, but you were the good in it ... I can't let you do this thing, it won't make you happy, it won't make you feel what you think it will," he said, clearly speaking from experience.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sun Oct 04, 2020 12:17 am

“Well didnt you?” She just lashed back, looking at him for a second, but it was like everytime she did, her eyes would well up again. She hated that so much, that this was how it had to be. She wasnt going to cry like she did when he had broken up with her, she wanted to seem stronger this time even if she felt weaker than ever. But it wouldnt matter either way, strong or weak, she wouldnt get him back. “I was safe and happy once,” she mumbled, feeling her breath tremble. “But that’s gone now. You took that with you,” she said, shaking her head as she lifted her hands to remove some rogue tears that made their escape.
She listened to him but she wasnt sure wat to think or believe. She looked down at her feet for a second and rubbed her nose as she sniffled. “It’s not supposed to make me happy. So you’ve got that right,” she said, looking back at the bar. “I’m not going home. And I’m not gonna listen to the man that broke my heart to a thousand pieces,” she said as she lookef at him. She really wanted to hate him, but she loved him. That was the only reason she was acting out like she did, because she had lost something that she held so dear to her heart. “You can stick around if you want. But I’m not gonna stop, no matter how many you want to out my age to,” she said before she started walking, pulling out her phone to see if she could find another contact.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sun Oct 04, 2020 12:32 am

He scoffed at her words, shaking his head. It hadn't been a choice. It had been this or her death, and he knew that he couldn't live in a world without her in it. It just didn't seem fair. He just stood there, listening to her speak and he felt like he had wasted what little freedom he had on this. However as she seemed to mention going on with her plans he shook his head, grabbing her phone, but not taking it away from her. Instead he looked her dead in the eyes, feeling his body shake. "Is this what you have succumbed to? Being a spoiled brat that acts out because she can't get what she wants?" he asked in a serious voice, but you could see how broken down he was. His body might've looked healthy, but his mind was a mess.
"You think I wanted this? You honestly think that I want to be with him?" he asked, mostly in disbelief as he couldn't understand. Hadn't he made it clear that he had done this for her? So that she could live her life and be safe? "Life isn't a fucking fairytale ... But I was damn near close when I was with you," he said, feeling his eyes water, taking deep breaths as his throat felt like closing up. He knew he had to watch what he said, Eden was listening, but he didn't care at this point. The vampyre was well aware of what the nephilim felt. "I wanted a life with you ... I wanted something more, something that I know I was never going to have, but you made me believe it; A family," he said, his hand shaking as he held on to her phone, looking down he shook his head, feeling those shivers again. He was afraid. So afraid because he had already lost her, but he so desperately wanted her to see what he was doing for her sake.
"You are my home, Theresa, you're everything that I could ever wish for and more ... Is it really that bad that I want to see you happy?" he asked, feeling his breath shudder. "Do you have any idea what length I've gone to to be here right now?" he asked as his tears finally made their way down his cheeks. He was angry, angry at himself for offering something so horrendous, and sad because she still didn't get it. "So hate me, yell at me, act out, but do not punish your family nor yourself for what I've done."

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sun Oct 04, 2020 12:57 am

He grabbed her phone and she looked at him with angry eyes, especially because his words hurt. Wasnt it already so obvious? She knew she was behaving like a spoiled brat, but what else was she supposed to do? Try and forget him? No way. “Why are you with him then? For my safety?” She asked, shaking her head as she found it ridiculous. Did he think she was incapable of protecting herself? The thought alone made her feel a little angry because he hadnt even given her a chance to show how capable she could be, how she handled all these business men that she met with with ease. “I made my promise to you. If I dont belong to you, then I belong to no one,” she said, looking away for a second as she felt like she could cry, but she was doing her best to not give in.
She looked at his shaking hand, frowning to herself as she looked up at him. His question made her sigh as she wasnt sure what to tell him. That he was a fool to think she could be happy without him? Then he asked something that she couldnt tell what meant. “What do you mean?” She asked, looking at him as she saw the tears. “I cant hate you. That’s the whole problem here. I cant and I wont. And all I can do is push away and forget,” she said, looking at their hands for a second. She felt her lip quiver as she looked up at him. “All I want is for you to come back to me. But that wont happen,” she whispered, pulling her hand away once again, because his touch was just too much. “So it doesnt really matter what I do,” she said in a voice of defeat, clenching her jaw for a moment. “None of it fucking matters,” she whispered, her jaw trembling as she felt the tears press on. She kept telling herself she didnt want to cry, but it seemed like it was less of a choice now.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sun Oct 04, 2020 10:40 am

"Because I don't want to live in a world without you in it!" he yelled. His breath was heaving, but couldn't she see that he had done this for her? That he had actually given her a chance at life and not just for her to get snuffed out by the tyrannical vampyre? He didn't want to be with Eden, he wanted to be with her, but her life was more important than his happiness. He was completely devoted to her wellbeing and yet here she was wasting that away and making his sacrifice have no meaning. Her talk of promise made him grit his teeth. He knew what promise he had made to her, and that had been why he had tried to keep Eden at an arms length for as long as possible. And now it was all for what? Nothing?
He shook his head at her question. Even thinking about it made him feel the need to gag. "You think I don't want to come back? I want to! I want to be with you, love you, but then he'll kill you," he said as she pulled her hand away once more. By Verity, why did it have to hurt so much? "You matter, Theresa," he said, cupping her face because he was at his wits end. Couldn't she see what he was willing to do for her? Could she not understand that he valued her so much? "I never deserved your love, your affection, but you made me feel like I did ... In my life there's been a lot of times where I didn't know what I wanted, but when I met you I knew that I wanted you in my life," he said, stroking her cheekbones softly, feeling his heart ache to lean in and kiss her. He wanted to, but what would the consequences be?
"And even if I can't have you, I want you to be alive, because that means what I have given up hasn't been a waste," he whispered. It took everything in him not to lean in, but he held her face between his palms, stroking her tears away. "Please ... Just let me take you home ... Your mother is heartbroken, your father is missing his daughter and the rest of your family is worried sick - I know they blame me, but at least let me do something right," he pleaded with her.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sun Oct 04, 2020 3:05 pm

He was everything she wanted and she couldnt have him. Just because some sick in the head vampyre had decided so. She could feel the sobs want to escape but she held them in, whimpering quietly as she felt so lost and hurt. His words were sweet and he cupped her face like she was so precious to him. She was whimpering in pain because her heart hurt so much. She felt like it could break and kill her, that was how heartbroken she was and why she had been trying to push it away. His words were frustrating to her, because why couldnt he just get it through his thick skull that she didnt care what he thought he did or didnt deserve? She wanted to prove him wrong and show him that he deserved her love and so much more.
“You gave up on us. On your promise, on my promise. You didnt even try to fight back and fight for us,” she whispered, now crying as her voice felt like it was shattering. Her body was shaking and she felt like if he let go of her face she would fall. “Why should I fight this heart ache knowing it wasnt even worth a single fight?” She asked so quietly it almost couldnt be heard, closing her eyes and wincing her face in pain as she cried. “I dont know what you offered him to be here. And at this point, I dont know if I want to care. I just dont want to feel broken anymore, I want to feel like someone thinks I’m worth fighting for,” she whispered, grabbing his hands as she wanted to pull them off but she felt so weak, she couldnt. She didnt want someone or anyone, she just wanted him. To her it felt like she had been built up just to be broken down. “I already told you. If I dont belong to you, then I dont belong to anyone,” she whispered, squeezing his wrists slightly as she opened her eyes to look at him, letting him see how hurt she was. “I love you Gerard. I’ve already said that you would be my first and my last,” she whispered, feeling her lower lip quiver. “None of them touched me. Not once, not slightly,” she whispered, but she didnt know if it even mattered. She already knew her worth or what she felt like could define it.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sun Oct 04, 2020 10:48 pm

He just held her face, like he could do nothing as she spoke of his broken promises. It was like he was taking all of her words and using them to further punish himself, because she was right, wasn't she? He hadn't fought, he hadn't tried anything, but how could he even dare try to flee from the man who had no limits?
However one thing made him feel worse, and that was the fact that she told him that no-one had been allowed to touch her. She was starving herself of any comfort or touch, and he could feel that as her hands held on to his wrist. Did she want him to let go? As if he would let go now, he wanted to grab her and run. But what good would it do when Eden would just go after those they loved? How could he justify if Xalvador got hurt? What about Connor? He shook his head as he looked down, feeling his breathing hard to manage, because just holding her like this made him feel so warm inside. She just had that light in her, and he was a moth drawn to her helplessly. He leaned in, and without truly realizing it, he was pressing his lips against hers. Tears rolling down his cheeks as he just felt her, wrapping his arms around her, holding her close, because he couldn't hold back anymore. He loved her, and he was damned, but she didn't deserve this. She was good, truly good, and the purest thing in his life. "I'm sorry," he whimpered against her lips before kissing her again, feeling his heart beat so fast in his chest. "Please, Theresa ... Please can we go home to your parents and just talk?" he pleaded, opening his eyes to look at her. He didn't know what he was suggesting, but he couldn't be saying it out on the streets. Eden had ears and eyes everywhere, and this kiss could already be enough to make the vampyre snap. However he also knew he wouldn't attack a family home with capable seraphim inside.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sun Oct 04, 2020 11:10 pm

So this was how it was going to be? Him holding her face as she cried and she didnt even muster the strength to pull his hands off her? She wish she could just tell what was on his mind, a part of her wanting to yell at him for saying nothing at all, yet all she could do was stand there and cry. Maybe her mother had been right all this time, she was young and understood nothing, and it would all just get in her way. And then he leaned in and kissed her. She whimpered against his lips but returned it like she couldnt survive without it. Her hands gripped onto his wrists tightened slightly as her broken heart seemed to race in her chest. He wrapped his arms around her and she grabbed onto his clothes, pushing herself as close as she could get to him. His apology made her whimper in return, wanting to shake her head but she was far too busy feeling his lips. She was heartbroken angry and sad but a part of her just couldnt think about who was at fault because all she wanted was to get him back.
His plea made her open her eyes to look into his, clearly she thought about it before she buried her face into his chest and nodded. “Okay,” she whispered all muffled into his shirt, unsure if he was simply trying to trick her to go home or something else. She had her arms wrapped close around him as she just quietly cried against his chest, feeling completely safe once more in his embrace. It was clear that people were passing them with curious looks in their eyes but it was always like that when it seemed like a lovers quarrel was happening in the streets of western.

Subject: Re: An arrangement Sun Oct 04, 2020 11:41 pm

Feeling her actually return the kiss was what made him so awfully aware of how miserable he had been without her. Sure, the vampyre kept him healthy, but he was starved for creativity and in dire need of love. Not just obsessive need, but the pure love that he and Tessa shared for each other. He needed them to talk, he needed to hear her words and not just do what he thought was right.
She agreed, and he held her close to his chest, letting her cry as he felt his own tears roll down. And there they stood, two lost people in this large world, and it felt like maybe they could put the pieces back together. "You'll need to call your mother to pick us up ... I'll call Xalvador in the meantime," he said, mostly because he didn't know how much he trusted the phone he had right now. He didn't let go of her fully, keeping an arm around her as he made his call to his brother, explaining that he and Eliza should probably show up at Tessa's family's house.
When all the call had been made, he looked at the phone in his hand before he decided to disassemble it, taking out the sim card before looking at Tessa. "We'll just have to stay put until your mother arrives," he said calmly, but his face showed the worry at hand. He knew that Eden wasn't dumb, he had a way with finding people who didn't want to be found, but perhaps this could buy them some time.