Healing isn't always easy | Eden

"I like it when you call me beautiful," he said, assuring Eden that it wasn't a bad thing, only he perhaps needed more than that, "but .. maybe add what you find beautiful when you say it?" It was a suggestion. It didn't have to be a long list, just something he liked in the moment or something generic. As long as it was something positive and tangible, then it would be able to shift his focus for a bit and not let himself spiral. Or so he hoped. Not everything was straight forward sadly, but they could always try and make it easier for the both of them.
Hearing Eden state that he was proud of him made him feel good, but it also didn't delete the shame he was still feeling. Perhaps it was something he had to work on in his own time, but at least he could always count for the loving support of the man he loved. And that in it of itself was so comforting to the lycan. Eden was right. Romeo had to become someone he himself would like to be. But it was not an easy feat.
Moving on to the scars he couldn't emote how much he felt ashamed of what he had done and not to mention tried to do. His attempt had been genuine, and it had been the scariest thing ever. "And you're the man that I love; But I was so afraid you'd find me unappealing after seeing me like that .. or like how I look now," he admitted. While it wasn't nice to talk about his struggles, it was nice to at least involve Eden more. Hear his side of the story and hopefully calm his min a little. Eden was a beautiful man, one with no physical flaws, and perhaps Romeo was hoping that he could turn himself flawless too. That if he wasn't perfect, then why was the vampyre even wasting his breath on the lycan? Of course that was a toxic mindset to get into, so he pushed it aside for now, hoping it was something that he could resolve some other time.
"I just don't want you to be afraid of touching me," he admitted, having felt the reluctance and careful way Eden had gone about it earlier. Of course those things had shredded away as soon as they had gotten into it. "When you touch me I feel loved; I feel how you long for me and I want to be reminded of that." Was that not a fair point to make? He hoped it was. "You mean so much to me and to feel when you hesitate or hold back I guess I start to worry, even if it's unnecessary," he said with a small sigh leaving his lips.

"I like you when you're rough too," he argued, but it seemed to not be about that as Eden delved deeper into his reasonings. He didn't want to hurt him? He would've normally laughed it off, but the reasoning he gave was rather understandable. He cupped his face, looking at him with searching hazel orbs as he took in the information. "My husband is so sweet," he whispered, his finger drawing circles against his cheekbone, pressing himself closer before kissing the vampyre's cold lips. He wanted to warm him up, wanted to make him feel all of the touches he felt he had been robbed of. "I need to make it up to you .. making you wait for me like this," he muttered, his lips pulling up in a smile as he continued to kiss his face in random places, making sure he wasn't missing a spot.
"When we get married I'll be even stronger .. And you can do whatever your heart desires to me under the stars, in our cave; Wherever you want me, I'll be ready to handle all of your touch," he promised him in a sweet whisper before returning his lips to Eden's kissing him a little more passionately. He didn't want Eden to feel left behind. He had thought about him a lot. "Now tell me what I can do while we are apart .. What might help you unwind? Make sure it doesn't hurt when we are reunited?" Both of them had gotten used to releasing themselves quite often, if not daily then at least every other day. "Do you want dirty pictures of me?" He suggested, "a video of you thrusting into me mercilessly?" He had a lot of ideas if Eden was even interested. "How about .. my shirt with your stains on it?"

He felt that he was riling him up, but that was only a good thing in the lycan's mind. If Eden was into his suggestions then it would help him unwind when they were apart. He repeated a suggestion and he nodded, smiling at him almost innocently but he enjoyed seeing the vampyre think like this. The mutter sent shivers down his back and he nodded, "your phone is secure, right?" Eden had a lot of privacy around him, so Romeo wouldn't be surprised if he had some extra security on it that meant he could lock files with a password. "You could .. just take some pictures of me right now?" he suggested, blushing as it was new for him too. But it would make Eden happy. It would make him less pent up if he had something to get his sexual frustration out. "I mean, you always do say I look the prettiest when we've made love, right?"
He could feel he was riling himself up as well. It was a little exciting. But he also knew he didn't want to see the pictures himself, at least not while he was still recovering. "Or is it when you're inside of me that you find me most appealing?" Oh he felt on edge, biting his lower lip, rubbing himself against the vampyre in an attempt to stifle himself a slight bit.

Romeo couldn't help but chuckle as he was called a brat. It felt so good. It felt like he was himself again, even if just for the day. The urge made him sigh, humming as he got up and off the bed. He went to get Eden's pants, pulling his phone out before returning to the bed. He had turned the camera on, handing it to him, biting his lower lip as he moved to sit on top of him. It was so clear how turned on he was, his member needing to feel the love from Eden that only the vampyre could provide him with.
"Are you recording?" he asked, a smile on his lips as his cheeks were red. But Eden liked him that way, didn't he? He bit his lower lip as he started teasing himself, rubbing his entrance against the vampyre's hard length, moaning softly as he felt his heart beat faster. "Do you know what I like most about my husband?" he asked, his hands placed on the vampyre's stomach to support himself for what came next. He moved, pressing himself down on the firm member, vulnerable moans escaping his lips as Eden just slipped right in. "It's that he never seizes to surprise me," he moaned, his eyes rolling in to the back of his skull as his prostate seemed so tender from before.
He took it slow, just adjusting himself to a rhythm that both of them seemed to like. Oh how wonderful they sounded like this, moaning that was only accompanied by the wet sound of Eden penetrating him. It was so euphoric. He looked down at the camera lens, his mouth open as he found the perfect way to tease his prostate making his whole body twitch as it was touched. "Eden," he moaned his name tenderly, his hair a mess, his chin still having faint marks of semen and blood from earlier mixed with his sweat. "Ah .. hah .. mhmm .. cazzo .. my husband," he was panting softly and he wasn't even moving too fast. It was just how perfectly Eden hit his tender spot, his length twitching as a small release was about to come. And as it did, he felt himself moan louder, not even caring if they were too loud. It felt too good. He knew how Eden got off on seeing him enjoy himself, so this was really something else.
His shoulders were trembling, his fingertips digging into the cold skin beneath him as he kept riding him. "I'm so loose I'll only ever fit you," he moaned before he started riding him harder, not quite slamming himself down, but the movements firmer and with the intent of Eden reaching in deeper than before. He groaned softly, looking down at the vampyre beneath him with so much love in his fluid eyes. The sound of their skin slapping together was quite erotic to the lycan's ears, and he hoped that the camera could pick up on those heavenly sounds.

His face looked beautiful like this? He could've blushed if it wasn't for the fact that he was already completely red in the face. Eden moved the phone, and Romeo rejoiced in the cold embrace as the vampyre sat up, pressing their chests to one another as he had to let out a vulnerable whimper. The way he spoke about this recording being something Eden would actually use made him feel so good. He was just handing himself over, letting the love of his life do whatever he pleased, and the mutter made him hum before whimpering. The friction was making him drool, and he probably looked like a wild mess here on top of him. He was panting, gritting his teeth as Eden started to nibble at his skin as well.
Those delicate words. So softly spoken and wonderful to hear fill his ears. "T-T-Ti a-a-mo-o," he replied in his native tongue, although his stuttering was a clear sign of pleasure at this point. He wanted Eden to let loose. "I-Il m-m-mio c-cuore .. è s-s-solo .. t-tuo," he added his moans breaking up his sentence but he hoped Eden could understand him still. That he had said that his heart belonged only to him. And with it meant that no-one would ever have his heart, only he had it, and Romeo could feel how he was actively making him feel loved. "I-Il m-mio m-m-marito," he pleaded with his husband to be.
"P-P-più f-forte-e," he needed him to go faster and harder. He needed to feel all of him. Feel how their skin would slam together and maybe even leave a few bruises if he was lucky. He needed Eden to really do him, really give his all as that was what he needed to feel. "P-per f-f-fav-o-ore-e," he pleaded. Having lost all remembrance of he English language meant that right now he could only seem to handle speaking Italian.

Oh he was so good to him, grabbing him and then it felt like his vision blurred for a second as the vampyre pressed firmly into him, and it turning to actual pounding thrusts that made him yelp out in pleasure. His head dangling a little, his whole body buzzing as he felt the rush of euphoria being forced out of him, spilling between them and yet Eden didn't stop. Fuck he was so hot like this! The way he moved, how he sounded and grabbed at him. He had never felt more loved or needed before. His prostate getting continuing attention made him moan louder, even screaming to get a bit of the pent up emotions out of his chest. That was when Eden made a demand he just couldn't resist.
His voice was shaky, but heavy with his accent as he began in a lower voice between his moans, "E-Ed..en-n," he moaned, his speaking getting interrupted by how hard Eden was actually fucking him right now. And yet it didn't feel meaningless. It felt so full of love and pleasure. "E-E..d-d-d..en," he moaned a little louder, panting as his fingertips dug into the vampyre's shoulders in an attempt to stabilize himself, but he was completely at his mercy right now. His head rolled back, groaning in bliss as he tried gathering air for his lungs, knowing that the vampyre might get impatient with him. Forcing his head back to look at him, his eyes half-lidded, drool escaping his lips and tears in his eyes from how heavenly he felt he finally answered the demand. "E-Eden!" he managed to scream, happy that his name wasn't longer as the air was forced out of him with how hard he was actually being thrusted into.
Feeling lightheaded, he wrapped his arms around him, dipping his head down to rest their cheeks to one another, "j-j-je-eg," his voice hoarse, but he needed to say this to him as tenderly as the vampyre had told him. "E-el-el-ske-r-r," he struggled still, but that could also be explained away by all the emotions in his chest from what they were doing, "d..de..d-de-eg."

Feeling him give in was perhaps the most rewarding thing this world had to offer. It even made him cum in return from just how vividly he felt it through his skin. Saying the words he felt a new world of euphoria and bliss blossom from the vampyre, and Romeo felt so proud. He was panting and whimpering softly as it seemed that Eden wasn't done yet. But Romeo needed a break. His whole body felt so tense from how amazing and mind-blowing this had been. "B-b-b..rea..th-h," he pleaded softly, hoping Eden would stop. He didn't mind if the vampyre stayed inside of him. In fact he was a little afraid of how empty it would feel without him pressed inside.
His whole body was buzzing with raw emotions, pressing the vampyre as close as they could while sitting like this. Occasionally his muscles would spasm a bit, a bit of an aftershock to what it had gone through, but he still felt very much in bliss. Breathing in his scent against the vampyre's skin he smiled, "I-I think-k I-I'm go-going to-to ne-ed a-a co-py-y o-of t-this-s," he managed to stutter, chuckling and moaning softly as he could feel just how filled up he was. Not to mention how loose he had gotten. Only Eden seemed to be able to make him so relaxed and open. Either that or perhaps it was the way that the vampyre had been pounding into him. But he was being serious about the video. Even if he disliked seeing himself, he would definitely like watching the wide view of the two of them losing themselves to one another. It was just perfect like this.

He was shivering a bit, but he wasn't cold. It was simply all of the emotions that were running wild still and now had to calm down, settling as soft trembles as he heard the demand. Or was it a plea? Perhaps both. Regardless Romeo couldn't deny the love of his life anything, not after what they had just done. He heard the shutter go off, smiling against Eden's lips as he let their kiss deepen, feeling how gentle the vampyre was touching him meant the world to him. The chuckle made him smile, nuzzling his nose against the cheek of his love, simply listening to his breathing calming down. "It's always just the tip of the iceberg with us, isn't it?" he muttered, smiling as he felt so happy, having his arms firmly around the vampyre's shoulders.
"I don't even dare what it would've been like if I was a vampyre too," he chuckled, finding the thought a little amusing, "I mean; No need for sleeping or breathing .. When would we ever know when to stop?" It was a valid thing to think about. He pulled away, looking at those familiar blue green eyes. His hands moving up, cupping his face, his thumbs caressing those defined cheekbones. Kissing him softly he groaned into his mouth before pulling away to look down between them. He had made quite a mess, hadn't he? "Cazzo .. babe .. there's so much," he said quite amazed at what it looked like between them. And now he wanted to know just how full of Eden's love he truly was.

Somehow Romeo liked knowing that they would've been as Eden had called them disgusting fiends. It was comforting, and while the comment about his sweat made him chuckle, he was sure that they would be covered in so much else besides sweat if they kept going forever.
Being helped was nice, but as Eden started to finger him he couldn't help but whimper, squirming a bit at how tender he felt. "Ah .. hah .. Eden .. mhmm," he did feel a little sore, but the feeling of the vampyre helping him with the seed planted so deeply within him was really good. "L..L-leave-e..s-s-some..thing..i-in..side-e..f-f..or..la-ater," he pleaded. He didn't want to be rid of him just yet. No, he liked when he could feel him even hours after. He felt a bit perverted from thinking like that, but how could he not be when it was such an active reminder of the love they shared. He looked at Eden with pleading eyes. He didn't want him to just empty him right here on the linen in this motel. He wanted to be able to smell him all night if possible.
He was panting softly, "It .. It doesn't hurt," he assured him once Eden stopped fingering him, "it's a little sore .. but mostly it just feels good." He wasn't afraid to admit what feelings he got when he had been loved this roughly by the vampyre. It was the best feeling. Even when he would have to sit down he would be reminded of this very moment. "I love you .. so much," he said, letting his back rest against the mattress.

"You're just jealous you won't get to see when it finally does run out of me," he replied, smiling as Eden moved them around. Just laying here, close like this nothing could come between them. The kisses he reciprocated quite gently, enjoying all of the soft touches. It was such a stark difference between the man who had just been pounding the living daylights out of him, though it was more than welcome. Their love was multifaceted and had more layers than met the eye. Sure, they could go at it as if they were wild animals, but they were also tender like this.
The question however felt a bit like a stab to the gut. He closed his eyes, taking a few deep breaths as he knew that Eden meant well. He wanted to assure the man he loved that he was doing better, but he was still struggling with all the rules in his head. He grasped softly at his arms, nodding carefully. "I .. I can try," he said, because he couldn't make any real promises. After his mess up the day before he couldn't be sure how his body would react to any of this. "Could we .. maybe just order something?" he asked, not really sure if he wanted to go out and eat. It still felt like pushing it to have strangers watch him eat, even if they were minding their own business.

Even if their quote on quote bubble was burst, Romeo knew deep down that it was out of the love that Eden had for him that he had asked. And he simply couldn't fault him for that. The question of what to eat was a struggle on its own, but Romeo took some deep breaths. He usually had a meal plan back at the facility, one that he could plan himself to prepare, but this was perhaps a good exercise. Looking down, he thought his words through before speaking. "Some wholegrain pasta, cooked al dente but with no salt in the water .. some chicken, cooked through and unseasoned .. and maybe some cucumber?" he said. He knew it probably sounded boring and bland, but it was safe foods for him. And if he was going to eat, it might as well be something he knew he had eaten before.
His heart was pounding in his chest from the nerves surrounding this. He grabbed on to Eden if he was getting up to place the order, "a big glass of water too," he said. While he was usually only allowed a medium sized one, he felt like he needed some fluids back in his system after their escapades. And surely Eden would keep tabs on how much he ate in contrast to what he drank in fluids. The vampyre was always so attentive. He let go, letting him go place the order as he just laid back on the bed. His body was a bit sore, but it was a good feeling, wondering when he had last felt like this. It felt like ages.
If Eden was ready, Romeo would go wash up a bit, taking the vampyre with him under the showerhead, washing away their messes even if they were nice to look at. He was wobbling a bit, struggling to keep his balance as well, but he managed quite nicely until they were under the water. The pressure from above made him lean against the wall, panting softly. He was exhausted. Normally he would've bounced back by now, but it was so clear that he had strained himself.

He felt Eden pull him close and he was happy for the support. The question made him hum, nodding and rubbing his cheek up and down the vampyre's chest at the same time. The warm water felt so nice and staying close to the man he loved was even better. However of course that didn't take away from the worry he felt from Eden. "I just .. I think we went a little overboard," he admitted, his breath a little shallow as he was focusing a lot on just keeping himself standing up. He just wanted the shower to be over with so he could sit or lay down again. "Stop blaming yourself," he muttered in a soft tremble, already feeling the guilt rise up in the vampyre, smiling at him. He had genuinely enjoyed this. Enjoyed feeling normal. Being in love with his man, feeling him fill him up and not have him worry about whether he was strong enough or not. "We needed this .. needed to feel raw and connected," he said as a soft reminder.
Finishing up the shower he wobbled over, grabbing a towel and wrapping it around himself before he had to sit down on the toilet. Groaning softly as the lid turned out to be quite uncomfortable, but he couldn't really stand to walk either. "Sorry .. I just needa .. Catch my breath," he panted softly. This was perhaps where his sickness started to show. He didn't like to admit it, but how he still ate didn't give him nearly enough energy that it took to sustain something so active of an experience as their sexual activities. He had sorta forgotten it in the heat of things and it had been so liberating, but now he was knocked down a few pegs.

Of course the vampyre couldn't let go of the guilt, but at least Romeo didn't want to hear him apologize. At least he was sure to be taken care of, and at the request he hummed, reaching up and around the vampyre's shoulders to let him carry him. He didn't like feeling powerless, but at least he could count on Eden to not rub it in his face or anything. In fact he was very considerate, and as he was placed back on the bed he felt more at ease. Reaching for the vampyre, he pulled him down, snuggling up to him just to have him close. There was no point in denying that he needed the comfort right now.

After struggling to eat, and yet managing to get some down, it was starting to get late. Romeo was feeling a bit better after actually giving his body something to work with, but the shirt he had arrived in was stained. He grit his teeth as he looked at it, feeling silly but also nervous because he didn't want to show his body. He was trembling a bit, his eyes welling up as he couldn't see himself out of the problem. He had his jacket, but he didn't feel like it would cover him up alright and having this inner battle in his head he wasn't sure what to do.