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<News> The Pipes, Royals and Clans, oh my!
They all grow up so fast - Page 2 EmptyThu Jan 23, 2020 5:58 pm by bels
The Pipes, Royals and Clans, oh my!
January - 2020


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We are stoked to see new people have joined, and as a result we are working hard at making Kaleidoscope a better place. Over the coming month some changes might appear, but fear not, the lore and races already in …


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<News> Kaleidoscope is OPEN!
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Kaleidoscope is OPEN!
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A little late on the welcome, but this is the official notice that we're more than ready to take in newcomers. We have been working hard on setting up this page since last thursday and it's quite rewarding to know that we've managed …


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PostSubject: Re: They all grow up so fast   They all grow up so fast - Page 2 EmptyThu Feb 27, 2020 8:38 pm

Saoirse could understand if he still saw her as a child, that he thought it strange, but she couldn't see the harm in it. To her, everything was still rather innocent. A kiss was still something viewed, at least by her, something that you did because you liked your family. She still kissed her father and mother on the cheek, why was that so different? As he asked how her father loved her aunt she shrugged a bit, mostly because she didn't know. They barely spoke unless it was something about Amos. As he said that him and Tessa didn't do certain things she seemed to start to understand, but there was one thing that stuck out to her. One thing that made her heart ache. "So ... You'll never let me cuddle up to you ... Ever again?" she asked rather perplexed. It didn't seem fair. She wanted to be younger again, wanted to be close to him and have him laugh and smile with her. "You won't hold my hand or anything?" she said, feeling like her heart was being ripped out of her chest. She had hoped that the distancing thing had just been temporarily, but now he said it would be from now on.
"Why didn't you warn me that you weren't going to do that forever?" she whispered heartbroken. So often she had had Connor or Amos over, and she had fallen asleep in their arms. Was that never going to be possible again? "I don't think it's fair," she said, clutching her hands together as she walked. Sniffling a bit, she felt herself so worked up about it all, and she just wanted things to go back to how they used to be. When she had been carefree, and her brothers wouldn't be afraid of having her close.
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PostSubject: Re: They all grow up so fast   They all grow up so fast - Page 2 EmptyThu Feb 27, 2020 9:37 pm

He sighed at her question and shrugged, “It’s not meant to be like that,” he said truthfully before he noticed how sad she seemed about it. He wanted to comfort her but at the same time, it was something she needed to learn eventually, as hurtful as it was. She continued and he wished that there was something that he could say that she could do. It was just so complicated and he wasnt sure that this bond had been meant for families to partake in. “I dont think you would have understood. And we didnt know this was going to happen,” he said in a sadened tone but he wasnt lying.
He looked ahead, thinking that maybe she just needed some time to come to terms with it. Or at least that was what he hoped for. They wouldnt be far from the house and he mostly kept looking ahead, not saying much if she wasnt speaking about something first.
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PostSubject: Re: They all grow up so fast   They all grow up so fast - Page 2 EmptyThu Feb 27, 2020 9:50 pm

Was she being unfair? Maybe, but she couldn't possibly understand why things had to be this way. It sounded too complicated for her to think much about, so instead she just focussed on walking. She felt like she had been lied to all her life. The thought of being in close proximity to both Amos and Connor had always just been a fact. But now it felt like her whole world view had shifted. They seemed to just walk the rest of the way in silence, and she feared that once they got there, that he would just turn around and leave her.
Reaching the house, she found her key, unlocking the door as she looked at him. "Would it be allowed if you came inside and had some lunch with me?" she asked, still not knowing everything fully. It felt like her heart was being trampled on. She hoped he would follow her inside, closing the door after him if he decided so. "Auntie Aiden came by with some food the other day, maybe there's still some left?" she suggested, removing her cardigan at first. She looked at her bare arms, the white marks showing more clearly since she had been getting a bit of a tan over the summer. Her father had black marks, but hers were white, and in winter they would probably not be as visible. Walking in to the kitchen she opened the fridge, looking inside to see a container with one of the dishes that Aiden had been trying out. It was nice having someone like her to stop by with new recipes she was trying out, because it meant that food was always readily available. Saoirse ate a lot, she had always done that, so not having breakfast had set her back a bit.
However her stomach was still hurting somewhat, and she decided to walk to the stove to heat up the nice wok dish. Turning, she looked at Connor. Her face betrayed her, because all she could do was look sad. She wanted him close, wanted him to hold her, even if it was just for the last time. Walking over to him, she took his hand as she had when she was a child, holding it to her heart as she just looked at his face. "I don't want to make you angry with me, or anything like that ... But you could at least give me one hug, just one simple hug where I get to feel like you still care," she pleaded, her eyes fluid as she felt on the brink of crying. She would break if he denied her, she just knew it.
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PostSubject: Re: They all grow up so fast   They all grow up so fast - Page 2 EmptyThu Feb 27, 2020 10:09 pm

Reaching the house, he could see that neither Baal or Buffy was home yet. It made him consider her offer before he simply nodded, thinking there couldnt happen anything bad if he went with her. Going inside he took off his shoes and his backpack and followed her to the kitchen. In the kitchen he placed the kettle to warm some water, thinking he might as well get some tea. He watched her warm her food while he was minding what tea he wanted to drink today. She looked at him and he looked up from the pan, frowning a little as she came to him to grab his hand and place it on her heart. He just looked at her a little perplexed, but her plea made him soften up in a sigh. “Maybe we were too harsh. How about we slowly get you used to not doing all the things we used to do?” He suggested, thinking it was a good idea.
Amos probably wouldnt be up for it, but Connor started believing it could work out and help her be less sad about it. He grabbed her hand and entangled their fingers as they had used to, smiling softly at her. “We’ll still be brother and sister no matter what, alright? Even if we cant be as close as we used to,” he reminded her, but hoped that him giving in could grant her some peace for now. He didnt really want her to be hurting, so maybe he could bend the rules this time.
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PostSubject: Re: They all grow up so fast   They all grow up so fast - Page 2 EmptyThu Feb 27, 2020 10:19 pm

As he entangled their fingers she felt like she could finally breathe again, leaning against him and burying her face in his chest, breathing in his familiar scent. "As long as you're in my life, I'll be happy," she whispered against his shirt, but she didn't know if he could hear her. It felt like such a relief to just stand here with him, feeling his hand in hers and how their fingers just intertwined like they used to. "I love you, ba-ba," she mumbled. She still called both Connor and Amos by their old nick name when she felt safe and happy. It was just one of those things that had never went away. She stood there for a while, just enjoying finally being allowed close to him. She saw nothing wrong in it, as long as he was happy, she would be too.
She could hear the pan had heated up, as well as the kettle starting to boil. She knew she needed to pull away, but this was what she had hungered for all summer, just to have him close and not push her away. "I know I'm pushing it, I just missed you," she confessed, moving slowly out of his embrace, even though she wanted to stay in his arms forever. She looked at him, a warm smile on her lips. She felt tempted, tempted to just lean in and place her lips against his, but he would probably get mad at her. "Do you want to watch a movie while we eat?" she asked, still not having moved completely out of his embrace. Her hand still entangled with his in a safe hold.
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He let her come closer and wrapped an arm around her as he held her close. The problem wasnt that he was hating this, because he didnt hate it. The problem was that he on the contrary, really liked it. He liked it so much that his mind wanted more, pushed on by the bond that they shared. It felt like he had been torn in half and she was given the missing one. Her mumble made him swallow as he nodded, finding it a little hard to speak, “Love you too, little gup,” he muttered under his breath, keeping her wrapped safe and close to him.
He didnt even mind the kettle as it whined softly and the pan was shizzling, because his mind was getting what it wanted. Her confession made him scoff, “ It’s alright,” he said, thinking that this way she may accept the change over time - Or so he hoped. He looked down at her and saw that warm smile on her lips, he felt his cheeks get a little warmer though it was a good idea that she hadnt just kissed him, even if the temptation had been there.

He nodded at her words when he heard tires squeal and a cardoor slam quite hard. It didnt take long before Amos just barged in like he owned the place looking at the two. His eyes moved down to their hands and he frowned, “What in the void do you two think you’re doing?” He asked harshly. Connor stepped in front if Saoirse to shield her, “She wasnt feeling well and you werent takikg care of her,” Connor said in a tone that sounded calm but they would both know he was being just as harsh as Amos. The daemon scoffed, “She’s not a child anymore. She can take care of herself,” Amos just said coldly to the seraph. With the bond’s change, their rivallry had just gotten worse. Amos walked over and pushed Connor away before grabbing Saoirse’s arm to pull her away from the seraph, though Connor held her hand as long as it wasnt hurting her. “Stop being so cruel. This whole thing was your idea!” Connor exclaimed angrily, Amos just kept pulling at Saoirse, “Fine, I’ll be less cruel then,” Amos said and before Connor could say anything, Amos leaned down to softly kiss Saoirse. The seraph widened his eyes in shock. Amos pulled away slowly and looked at Saoirse, slowly moving some hair from her face and behind her ear, “Are you happy now, brat?” He asked a little annoyed.
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[justify]It just felt good, in a way that she couldn't quite describe. Having Connor close just seemed to make her ache less. Having their fingers intertwined was just one piece of the puzzle, but she was going to be thankful for all the things that she was allowed to do right now. While she wanted to kiss him, she also knew that it might be the thing that he had told her was forbidden. Everything was nice, everything was calm.
Then she heard the squeal of the tires, and she knew it was Amos even before he barged in through the door. Saoirse felt like she had been caught in something she was not allowed to, but it was hard to deny herself the things that felt so natural. The guys started fighting, not physically, but verbally and it hurt Saoirse deep down. "Ba-ba," she pleaded with Amos, but he was too busy trying to pull her away from Connor. She held on to the seraph's hand for dear life, and at the daemon hovering over her. Then she felt something wonderful against her lips, her eyes closing in pure instinct as she felt the daemon's lips against her own. He leaned away, and here she stood, having just had her first real kiss with Amos while holding Connor's hand. Amos' snappy tone made her look away, moving over to Connor once more.
She was quiet, letting everything replay in her mind. She hid her face away in the seraph's chest once more. Her cheeks were burning and her heart was racing. "Please don't fight," she pleaded. This kiss had stunned her, her mind running wild with why Amos was doing this when Connor had just told her it wasn't allowed. She knew the two never saw eye to eye, but as the blonde haired had said, it had been Amos' idea to begin with. Swallowing she looked up at Connor, her hand reaching up to cup his face. "Do you want to kiss me too?" she asked, rather perplexed as to what all these feeling were.
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PostSubject: Re: They all grow up so fast   They all grow up so fast - Page 2 EmptyFri Feb 28, 2020 8:31 am

Hadnt it been that Connor had been so focused on keeping it mild for Saoirse’s sake, he would have thrown himself over the daemon and they probably would have started fighting physically. He knew or hoped that it had been her first kiss and at the same time, he just hated that it was Amos who had gotten it. He was as ever crude about it, like he had been trying to make some sort of point that Connor didnt understand. She hid away and he didnt blame her, no in fact he was glaring with anger at the daemon who seemed unfazed by it all. Then she cupped his face and he looked down at her, shifting between her eyes as he swallowed hard, “I cant take advantage of you like that,” he whispered truthfully, thinking it would have been something else, had she actually been a 17 year old with the knowledge of one. She was still just a child in so many ways and Connor’s love was the complete opposite of Amos’, it was selfless and in many ways self-sabotaging.
All it took was one snicker from Amos to make Connor snap at him and so another session of bickering began. Connor pointing out how they couldnt just do stuff like that to her when she didnt know about that side of love and Amos shrugging it off as he more so placed the blame on the celestial making the bond to begin with without saying what would have happened. “She deserves to find someone who isnt one of her brothers,” Connor said in a frustrated tone but Amos crossed his arms, “You’re an idiot,” the daemon muttered and so the bickering continued. It was only that Connor stopped when he smelled something crisp in the air and it wasnt the pleasant smell of food any longer. Right then, the fire alarm went off and Connor let go of Saoirse to open a window. He grabbed a table cloth and tried to guide the smoke outside.
Amos stared at Saoirse for a little while before he scoffed to himself and shook his head. “I shouldnt have come,” he muttered angrily and decided to go for the door.
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His whisper alone made her realize that he actually wanted to. Why else would he reply like that. She looked at him, looking rather confused until Amos snickered. It was as if all hell broke loose, and Saoirse was stood in the middle of it. Their bickering continued, and Saoirse had to step away, however she made a small jump at the fire alarm, covering her ears as it hurt listening to. Connor was quick to react, and she was rather happy that he knew what to do. She could feel Amos' eyes on her, making her look at him as he shook his head. There it was again, that feeling of sadness that she had felt all summer. As he went for the door she pushed herself towards him, grabbing his hand. "Why shouldn't you? Because you don't want the strings?" she asked flustered, not really knowing how to use that word in a sentence. "All I want is to be with the two of you, but you keep putting me down and tearing me apart," she pleaded, looking to Connor with a sad gaze. She loved them with her whole heart, so much so that if she was asked to choose, she would ask to be split down the middle. "You keep pushing me away, then pulling me back in with promises, just to push me away again ... I might be unknowing in all of this, but I'm still a person!" she persisted, tears running down her face as she felt like it had all boiled over. Her heart was at the tipping point, she couldn't handle another day with this behavior.
"Please don't leave me," she pleaded to both of them, reaching her hand out to Connor, wishing he would take it. She didn't know much about the bond that they shared, but she knew she was right in the middle of it. "I can be whatever you want me to be, just don't push me away," she sobbed.
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PostSubject: Re: They all grow up so fast   They all grow up so fast - Page 2 EmptyFri Feb 28, 2020 5:08 pm

Of course she wouldnt let him leave. He should have just not said anything at all or maybe said something that wouldnt have sparked the question she'd ask. He frowned at her words, pulling at his hand so she would have to move closer to keep her grip, "You dont even know what that means," he said in annoyance, wishing that she would just magically understand and let it go. Connor just looked down when she looked at him, feeling a little guilty and horrible for making her feel that way.
Amos just wasnt as kindhearted as Connor, even if the bond forced him to feel a certain way about Saoirse, he refused to let it control him, which was why he was reacting the way he did. Her plea made Connor take her hand and hold it close to his heart. But Amos just couldnt give in and it was tearing him apart as well. "Dont push you away? What does that mean to you? That I should allow you to kiss and cuddle me like you used to? Ignore how it makes me feel?" Amos snapped, pulling to free his hand from her grip. "You are so selfish in all of this! Not once have you considered what we wanted, what we need. It's all about you and just you!" he exclaimed, gritting his teeth a little. Connor frowned deeply at him, even if it was the truth, this wasnt the right way to tell her. "You're too young and too dumb to understand how the no strings attached is offering something that you dont even know exists!" he yelled, to then clench his jaw when even he knew he had stepped over the line. "Leave." Connor said coldly, and Amos just nodded. There was no way the daemon would ever apologize, so it was better if he just left.
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She was pulled closer to him, his voice almost bitter as she looked at him. She felt Connor take her hand, and it calmed her somewhat, but Amos was like a raging wildfire, willing to burn anything on his path. When he snapped, her eyes widened in surprise, feeling her throat dry. He had pushed her away, he had kept persistent that they needed space and today he had kissed her. How was she supposed to know how he felt? As he yelled she felt like she was being scolded like a child, but as Connor said for him to leave, she tightened her grip on Amos' hand. "I do care! And I'm sorry I'm selfish, but I love you - I love you and I don't know why my body craves you near, but it does," she yelled back at him, tears streaming down her face. "I'm sorry that I'm a brat, I'm sorry that you have the burden of me hanging on your shoulders, but I didn't ask for this," she said, her body starting to shake with anger and sadness. She looked at Connor, knowing he wanted the daemon to leave, but then she would feel torn again. It hurt enough that she couldn't be around both of them all the time, but this was cruel. "I'm sorry that you hate me, that I'll never be good enough or smart enough, I'm sorry I'm young and don't understand, but none of you tell me anything," she pleaded before she finally looked down to her feet. Her breath was hasty, adrenaline running in her veins that made her twitch and shake.
"Why does my love hurt you so much? Am I cursed?" she whispered, but she expected not for any of them to reply. "Is it because you are better than me? That I will always be that little girl that I'm not anymore?" she whispered. Why was he blaming her to be selfish, when he knew how this was hurting her, and he couldn't even give her a straight answer. "I ... I thought you loved me, I thought you cared and maybe I am just that stupid and naive girl, but I can't stop," she said, her stare going a bit blank, like she was trying to distance herself from this moment. In her mind she was pleading for him to pull her in to his arms, call her his girl and just start over, but with Amos it wasn't always cut in stone.
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Even though he was hurting her with his words, she still didnt want him to leave and that was what annoyed him the most. That even though he clearly wasnt someone cut for this whole bond thing, she still so desperately wanted him close. "These 6 months has all been about you. My life was put on pause so I could make sure you were safe and protected. Your parents may have thought that they had it hard, but they chose this. I didnt know what I was getting into," he snared, shaking his head at her pleading apologies. What good were apologies now? It wouldnt make her stop pushing for him to stay, because she was still holding on to him.
Connor wished that he could explain to her why it wasnt meant to be as they all felt it should be. But he had tried, tried to tell her that it wasnt right. But it wasnt because she was cursed and it made his heart hurt that she thought that, "Saoirse, you're meant to feel that love for someone who isnt your family. That's how the bloodline continues," Connor said which made Amos even more angry because he felt like the seraph was mocking him, but instead of saying anything, he scoffed and looked away.
His expression was quick to betray him as he looked at her in disbelief when she started to question his love. "You will never understand. I cant un-love you, but I fucking wish that I could," Amos said with his teeth gritted, wringing her hand off his as he took a few steps back. "None of us have asked for this and yet you want us to satisfy your need. There it is again. Your need," he said in a low tone, feeling like he would go crazy if they kept going around in these circles. Connor just pulled Saoirse close and wrapped his arms around her, looking at Amos with disappointed eyes. The daemon was unbelievable. "Yeah, keep looking at me like I'm a fucking villain," he mocked Connor before he let out a frustrated grunt and rubbed his face a little before running his hands through his hair.
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Connor's words wasn't soothing at all, she was just so confused. She couldn't explain anything, but as Amos said he wished he could stop loving her, she let go. Staring at him in disbelief, her heart felt like it was getting ground in to a fine dust. Blinking a few times, she was left speechless, even her tears had stopped. Connor pulled her close, but she felt so cold, felt like she wasn't deserving anymore. "I ... I ..." she mumbled, feeling her body still shaking, even though Connor was still holding her close, closer than he had in months. She moved out of Connor's arms, almost as if she was in a trance, her lower lip quivering as if she was trying to say something, but she couldn't find the right words. She walked past him, away from Connor and moved to her room. One look in the mirror and she screamed at herself. She started banging her fists against the glass, feeling like nothing could make her feel anything anymore. Sadness any day, she thought, just not nothing. Tears were streaming down her face, her mirror now broken she looked at the misshapen her in the reflection. She sat down on the floor, wrapping her arms around herself as she felt blood trickling down her hand. Looking at it she was shaking. "I don't want to be a burden anymore," she whispered to it, as if her blood could do anything. However she soon felt herself getting dragged down, as if she was going through the floorboards, and she screamed, but this time in pure fear.
Clawing at the floor she tried not to let the black pit swallow her, but it was too late and soon the portal closed around her, making her disappear. The only evidence left that she had been there was a few drops of blood and the broken mirror.
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Amos felt like he had said what he needed to say, even if it had been breaking her heart. He felt bad in a sense, but not as bad as Connor who felt he was at fault for not stopping the daemon. She wasnt returning the embrace which made him worry and as she moved away, he was still too shaken to follow her. Looking up at Amos, he scolded the daemon, who started to defend his actions with what they both knew - This bond wasnt what they had imagined it to be when they initially had accepted it. Saoirse's scream and the mirror breaking brought their attention as they both looked in her direction, only needing a second to realize that they had to make sure she was fine. They hurried to her room to see her sit on the floor. Amos kept to the doorframe while Connor stepped closer, "Saoirse your hands..." he said in a concerned voice, but neither had expected what would happen next.
Watching her sink through the floorboards made Amos frown deeply as he went with Connor and they both grabbed for her hands, only to grab the air when she disappeared. Looking at the blood and the small pieces of mirror, the both of them sat on the floor in complete silence. The fire alarm going off had made the local fireman call Baal who came home right as everything had quieted down. "Saoirse?" he called, as he walked in on the two boys and saw the blood.
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It felt like falling, falling forever through something that was twisting and turning her bones. She screamed in to the void, but no-one seemed to care. Everything was black, blacker than when she had all the lights in her room turned off. Above her was nothing but black, below her nothing but emptiness and around her just one large void that seemed to stretch on forever. Her marks were glowing, a soft white light emanating from them to be her only guide through it all.

Nova had heard her scream, perplexed she had journeyed to the Void City she knew so well, and that was where she saw the beautiful little girl turned young woman. Nova was in her wanderer form, making Saoirse fall back in fear, however the glowing eyes of the celestial seemed so calming. "You're not supposed to be here for long, little dove," Nova said, her voice ringing in the void. Saoirse wanted to speak, but she couldn't make a sound. The celestial offered her hand, and as the trybrid took it a bright light illuminated the void before the blackness disappeared. Around her was now a nice garden, blooming flowers and a woman that Saoirse had only seen in her dream. "Oh my, I better call your parents," Nova said in a concerned voice, skipping off to grab her phone. Baal and her had agreed that the only reason for contact should be if something major was going on. And she thought this was a rather big thing. She called Baal, explaining that Saoirse was at her place out in the Northern District, and that he should get here to pick her up.

Saoirse stumbled around and as she started to cough, black liquid spewed from her lungs, making her whimper in pain. Nova came back, worried she grabbed Saoirse's hand before she sighed. Trent had not been an easy person to get a hold of, but she knew he must've felt someone new in the void. "Deep breaths, little dove, deep breaths - I have something for you," she said as she started gathering dried herbs from her rack under the overhanging roof. Mixing it together in to a paste she handed it to Saoirse, instructing her to eat it.
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The boys had no explanation for what had happened but Baal seemed to know what they meant when they said she had just disappeared. None of them had a proper explanation to what had happened in the kitchen with the burned food and the kettle that had been left to overboil, but that was because they had both agreed to not tell Buffy or Baal what the bond was doing - Simply because the situation was as complicated as it was and mixing them into it all would just have made it that much worse. When Nova called, he told them to stay, before he went out to get his daughter.

Arriving at the northern district, he went up to Nova's apartment, feeling the worry creep in. He had been unsure whether to text Buffy, since he didnt want her to worry when he only knew half the story he had been told. When he was let in by Nova, he walked over to Saoirse and kneeled down to place a hand on her cheek while the other moved some hair from her face if she had any strands hanging loose. "Heyyy little one," he said in a soft voice, feeling his heart hurt when he could see that she wasnt well. He turned his head to Nova and made a small grateful smile, "Thanks for calling," he said sincerely before he looked at Saoirse, "Did you find her in the void?" he then asked, looking back at Saoirse. He wasnt trying to make her feel like a child, but Nova would know more about the situation regarding the void than she would. "How are you feeling?" was what he asked her instead to be sure she didnt feel like he didnt want to hear what she had to say.

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PostSubject: Re: They all grow up so fast   They all grow up so fast - Page 2 EmptyFri Feb 28, 2020 7:36 pm

"I heard her scream, so I thought checking the void would be a good idea," she said, frowning as she didn't really know how to explain. Celestials were just in tune with the Void City, so she could pretty much hear if anything was going on, even when she was on this plane of existence. "She should be fine, I gave her a few basic herbs, but she might not be too well for a day or two - She doesn't appear to have a celestial form, so traversing the void could be very dangerous if she was to get stuck there," she remarked, looking at the young trybrid. In many ways, Nova felt obligated to help out, because she had added herself to the pool of genes that made up Saoirse.
Saoirse looked at her father as tears started rolling down her cheeks. She was tired and hurt, and she just wanted to disappear, but saying that out loud might worry him. She wanted to be his good girl, wanted to be happy and show him that she was grateful for her parents and how they worried and cared for her. However Amos' words kept running through her head. That he didn't wish to love her, that he and Connor was forced in to loving her and that she had become greedy. But how could she not be, when she had gotten their undivided attention for her whole life? "I don't feel so good," she confessed, looking down to her arms, a bit surprised to see that her marks weren't glowing anymore.
"You've grown so much since I saw you last," Nova remarked, rather surprised, but also wondering how the boys were keeping up. "Perhaps staying with her bonds would be the best option; We celestial heal faster when we are with our other part," she explained Baal. She was of the belief that the bond was still going good, so as Saoirse shook her head and looked down, Nova tilted her head to the side. "They can't keep putting their lives on hold for me," she mumbled in a sad voice, wanting to cry again, but all that came out of her eyes were more of the black liquid. Nova grabbed a towel, removing her black tears calmly.
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PostSubject: Re: They all grow up so fast   They all grow up so fast - Page 2 EmptyFri Feb 28, 2020 9:51 pm

He nodded at Nova's explanation, looking at Saoirse as Nova didnt quite believe the young girl had a celestial form. Frankly he didnt know if that was a good or bad thing, but it probably was bad if she had the ability to traverse to such a realm. "Do you know if she'll have one at some point?" he asked, looking shortly at the celestial before looking at his daughter again. He knew how hard it was on the body to go there, so he just hoped that Saoirse hadnt gotten something from there, like he had when Nova guided him through. He removed her tears gently with both his hands, looking down at her wounded hands as she confessed how she felt. He grabbed her hands carefully in his to inspect the wounds. "They're both at the house, I told them to stay," he said to Nova as he looked at their hands. But Saoirse's shake of her head made him look up at her, his face expressing his confusion.
"What do you mean?" he asked at her mumble, watching the black tears roll down her cheeks. Had something happened and was that why she had gone to the void realm? His head was already spinning different scenarios and outcomes for what had happened in the house. He didnt know if Saoirse was going to tell him what she meant, but he would be able to tell if she was lying. Even if she was barely 6 months old, he was still the father that wanted the best for his daughter.

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PostSubject: Re: They all grow up so fast   They all grow up so fast - Page 2 EmptySat Feb 29, 2020 8:55 am

Nova shook her head. "If she had one it would've shown as soon as she entered the void ... But I think something else keeps her stable in there, and my guess is those white markings," the celestial explained. It seemed like something was up, and Nova excused herself to another room, just to give the father and daughter some privacy.

Saoirse was sad, sadder than when she had opened that thing to the void, or whatever the strange woman called it. Because now she had involved her father in all of this. However she knew she could never lie to him, she just couldn't keep a secret and not one that affected her as much as this did. She explained how the boys had started to distance themselves, how hurt she had been that she had gotten no explanation of any kind. It had just happened from one day to another. She told him of the growth of her insecurity with her marks, because she thought it was because of those that the boys held their distance. How people had started staring at her, looking hungry, when she passed them in the school hallways. Swallowing she looked down, feeling ashamed almost, but it was only because Connor had told her how forbidden it was. "Amos kissed me ... And Connor and him got in to a huge argument ... The food burnt and all I wanted was for them to just stay, because when they are not around I don't feel whole," she explained, breathing out she shook her head. "Amos told me how he had put his whole life on hold because of me, and how Connor had done the same - I just ... I just wished that I wasn't a burden to them, and I'm done with forcing them to be around me," she said, sniffling before she started sobbing. Her heart was hurting and beating like crazy, but she didn't know if that feeling would ever go away. "Daddy, I love them so much and my love hurts them ... I can't keep hurting them," she pleaded, not knowing what to do in all of this.
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PostSubject: Re: They all grow up so fast   They all grow up so fast - Page 2 EmptySat Feb 29, 2020 10:09 am

He wasnt sure how the marks could protect her, but he was thankful that they did. Even though he had hoped she wouldnt have gotten them, it at least seemed that there was a good use for them. He noticed Nova leave but his attention was all on his daughter, his heart aching from seeing her this distraught. She was so young and he didnt think it was fair for her to already look this heartbroken, but he wouldnt ever think that her feeling heartbroken would be fair - Which was probably because he was her dad.
When she started explaining, he nodded and held her hands gently. It hadnt been a secret that Amos and Connor hadnt come around as often, but he hadnt thought it was for any particular reason, beside the fact that she wasnt as in need of help as she had been as a child and toddler. He looked at her marks as she spoke of them, watching how her white marks was more visible now that it was summer and she was bearing a suntan. He wasnt that fortunate, his skin mostly pale if not even only affected by a faint tint, the black marks clearly visible.
But then the worry came when she said people had started staring, he made a deep sigh but seemingly kept his calm as he let her speak, gently rubbing the back of her hands, mindful of the wounds from shattering the glass. But then she said something he hadnt expected to hear from her, the fact that Amos kissed her. His expression betrayed him as he frowned, but it wasnt in disappointment or anger, just confusion. He shifted between her eyes and swallowed hard as he was looking for the right words to say. He didnt want to make the situation worse. He let go of her hands and got up to sit down next to her, wrapping an arm around her to hold her close. He was quiet for a while as his hand gently caressed her head while his arm held her close. “I dont really know what to tell you Saoirse, there isnt a page in parenting about this particular issue” he admitted, biting his lip a little as it felt bitter to admit. He frowned a little at himself. “But if Amos kissed you but want to distance himself.... then it’s because he’s feeling some sort of conflict, and with the society we live in today, a conflict such as wanting to be your sister’s lover isnt accepted,” he then said when he had given it some thought. He wasnt really surprised, but could he really be one to preach against it with his history?
He ran a hand through his hair. “As you know, Amos’ mother is my sister. And... well I’m his father, his actual father,” he then admitted, though it probably wasnt that big of a secret. “But I didnt know she was my sister, not back then. However, I cant start to regret my past, because it was what led me to your mother,” he then explained, moving his hand to her shoulder before giving it a squeeze. “You cant force them to make you whole if they dont want to. Love is like a string. The more you give them, the more likely they’ll come back. Give them too much and they’ll think you dont care and wander into someone else. Give them too little and you’ll suffocate them,” he then explained, knowing it was an odd way to explain it. “You deserve the world and more, my little love, and though I’d want to give you anything that you’d want, we cant dictate how people think or feel,” he then said, leaning over to kiss the side of her head.

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PostSubject: Re: They all grow up so fast   They all grow up so fast - Page 2 EmptySun Mar 01, 2020 11:03 am

Saoirse felt a kind of relief as she had told everything to her father. It felt like a burden was no longer on her chest, but it didn't change how hurt she felt. Having him close was always nice, and she felt safe as he wrapped his arm around her, holding her close as he stroked her head gently. Resting her head against his shoulder she closed her eyes, taking some time to figuring out her breathing and maybe stop the tears from just running down her cheeks.
As he spoke she kept her eyes closed, because she knew that he would say that it wasn't alright. And now she was afraid that she was going to have to keep more distance from Amos. Despite what he had done to her, she couldn't do anything but love him, and perhaps that was what he had meant with him wishing he could stop loving her. However she wanted to love both of her brothers, and she wanted so desperately to be close to them, because it felt like the only thing making sense sometimes. The world was vast, and it was still scary to her in some way, even if she did want to explore it. As he started speaking about Amos' heritage, she frowned, opening her eyes and leaning away from her father to look at him with confused eyes. He had just said that it was forbidden to be with one's sister, but here he was telling her that he had been in the same situation. Frowning in confusion, she simply looked at her dad before her gaze turned down to her lap, looking at the small bruises that were starting to form on her hands. Was he telling her that it was alright to be with your siblings? Connor had said it was forbidden, and her father had even said as much, but she felt so confused now. She just wanted to love her brothers, both of them, but if they didn't want her love, what was she supposed to do?
It felt like he could read her mind at times, and her father went on to explain to her about love. It felt easier to grasp when he put it into words she could understand, but the last part of his sentence made more tears run down her cheeks. She had been strangling them, both of them, just because she was scared that they would never love her like they used to. "But daddy, what can I do? If society doesn't think it's alright, but you say that we can't decide how people feel, what should I choose?" she asked in pure confusion. There were still so many things she didn't understand about love, at least not in the way that his father showed his mother, but it didn't change the fact that she wanted to learn. She wanted to understand what this whirlwind of emotions inside of her was.
They sat there for a while, letting her calm down and as her tears had stopped she took a few deep breaths. Looking at her father, her eyes were puffy, her cheeks stained with her black tears, and now all she wanted was to go home. She felt a fear inside of her, because she was afraid that the boys would yell at her. That they would scold her and just leave her again, but as her father said, that was what she needed to do. She needed to give them enough string so that they didn't feel as tied to her anymore.
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Her question made him sigh because he wanted to say something that could lift her spirits and make her feel somewhat better and yet it was like the world didnt want that. He looked at her and took some time to rub the black tears of one side of her cheek before he finally spoke. “If we love someone that clearly doesnt love us back, it’s better to just let them go,” he said, frowning a little but that was because he didnt want to have to say those words to her, but it just seemed like it would be her best option. “That way, if it’s meant to be, then they’ll come back. That doesnt mean you shouldnt try to move on, because we cant set ourselves up for hoping for them. It will hurt for a long while but it usually gets easier with time,” he then said, moving his other hand up to clean the black stain off her other cheek. “Let’s go home,” he said before he kissed her forehead and got up. He offered her a hand in case she felt unsure on her feet.
Passing Nova, he stopped to thank her again, but he probaby should have asked if she had some time to explain the whole bond thing later. It just skipped his mind, since he focused more on getting his daughter safely home. When they got home, it was only Connor that greeted them in the hallway, which made sense because Amos’ car had been nowhere to be seen, “He left,” Connor said a little ashamed as he scratched the back of his neck. He was actually somewhat happy that the daemon had left, but Baal didnt seem so happy about it. He grabbed his phone and sent a text to Alyssa that something had happened - He didnt know what was going on in Amos’ mind but something was definitely different. He thought she would like to know since she cared so much about him. He looked at Saoirse, his expression turning a little sad when he feared she would be hurt. “I can stay over for dinner if you want me to?” Connor offered Saoirse. He still firmly believed that Amos had been in the wrong to snap like he had, like she was the one who had decided that this was how things were to be, but that was dumb because she had been just a baby.

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Saoirse had gotten a lot to think about, but thankfully the ride home wasn't unbearable. Reaching the house she saw how Amos' car was gone, and she felt a knot in her throat. Inside she was greeted by Connor, and she wanted to run in to his arms and hide her face away in his chest. However her fathers words kept ringing in her head, that she could potentially strangle him if she kept doing things like that. His suggestion made her look down, frowning before she looked to her father. "Daddy ... Could you give us some privacy?" she pleaded, knowing that her father was probably just staring at Connor with a warning gaze. She knew it was about this time that her mother got off work, and Baal usually picked her up afterwards. "Mommy get's off soon anyways ... Please?" she said, her eyes still sad, but she had made up her mind. She wasn't going to strangle the boys anymore, she was going to let them live their lives.
Her hand was shaking a bit as she walked closer to Connor, taking his hand, but not entangling their fingers like she dearly wanted to. She guided him to her room, glancing shortly at the broken mirror before looking down in shame. Sitting down on the bed, she didn't know what he wanted to do, so she would simply look at his eyes. "I'm sorry for keeping you a hostage ... I never meant to hurt you, Connor, I love you and I know that it hurts you," she said in a broken voice. She felt like she was saying goodbye, even though she wasn't. She wanted him to know that he had the freedom he wanted, that he could do as he pleased and that she would simply have to accept it. "I never meant to hurt you ... All I ever want is to make you happy, and I don't do that ... I keep you tied up and I just want you to know that you are free to do what ever you wish to - That you don't have to feel obligated to come when I call," she said, feeling her stomach churn with emotions. She wanted to cry, but she couldn't put him through that. She had worried him enough, she had proven to be a burden and all she waited for was him stating how happy he was to hear her admit to being such a villain.
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Any father would have been protective of his daughter once he had learned about some boy in her life. More so was it worrying that it was not only one boy and the two boys that it were, were supposed to be her family. It placed Baal in an odd position as they stood in front of Connor. When Saoirse spoke to him, he turned his head to her and shortly looked back at Connor. Her please made him sigh as he looked at her and nodded, "I'll go," he said as he touched her cheek gently. He looked back at Connor one last time before he left. The seraph could tell that the summoner knew and he didnt know if it was a good or bad thing.
When they were alone, Connor felt a little more at ease and let her take his hand as she guided him to her room. He looked at the mirror pieces on the ground, swallowing hard as he remembered how she had fallen through the floor not that long ago. It felt like minutes when he sat down on the bed next to her, but her words drew his attention from the floor to her. He just listened and frowned a little to himself as he nodded at her words. He looked down as he thought of her words but he really didnt know what to say.
He looked up at her again and gently placed a hand on her cheek, "Saoirse, I'm not Amos," he said with a soft tone before he ran his thumb across her cheek. He looked at her lips before he sighed and then looked away. He couldnt be like Amos, he couldnt just do what he wanted.
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While it was hurting her heart to say all of this, she just needed to let him know, that she didn't want him to be upset with her. As he placed a hand on her cheek, she couldn't stop herself from leaning in to that touch. She loved him, loved having him close and was she really such a villain that she didn't deserve his touch? His words made her look down, not noticing how he was looking at his lips. "I know you are not Amos ... Because you would never be so brutally honest, and that's why I have to be," she whispered, looking at him, seeing how he was looking away. She breathed out, looking at his face, but all she could think about was how she had hurt him. How she had strangled him with her love and how afraid she was of letting him go. She fell silent, thinking about everything that had happened today. How she still craved him close, even when she knew she couldn't have him.
"Can I kiss you?" she asked softly, feeling her eyes fluid from holding back tears. She reached over, placing her bruised hand against his cheek, turning his head to let her look at him. "Amos takes ... You don't take at all ... Now I ask," she said softly. She didn't know the implications, but she wanted to ask before she let go of him fully. Perhaps she was a narcissist, too caught up in what felt good for her. She looked down shortly. "I know you say it's not allowed, but I can't change how I feel about you, how my heart beats when you are close," she confessed. Maybe it was a good idea to tell him that she wanted this. That while she might still be a child in his eyes, she was growing up rather fast. Looking back at him, she let him decide. They were home alone, and her parents wouldn't be back for the next ten minutes at least. "Nobody has to know, if you don't want them to," she added. He would have no obligation to follow through with anything he didn't want.
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